Scissor Hands

Wasn't that the name of a movie or something? I bet i am glad i did not see it. Has anybody noticed how expensive haircuts are any more? One of my friends went to a lady who cuts hair in her home and the wash and cut cost 40 bucks! Not to mention tip! I hate handing over our hard earn money to the hairdresser for so much especially cause most of the time i don't like the style! Every since i have been married to Ross about 12 years, yeah, i have been cutting his hair and also my boys. So it is just stubbornness on my part for not going to the hairdresser. When i do go i get it chopped so i won't have to go back for a long time. That is why you will see me with long and short styles often. Well, today, i was standing in the bathroom thinking i really could use a trim to make my hair more healthy, when my hands just took over and grabbed the scissors. Before i knew it there was hair all over the counter and floor. i was wildly attacking my hair. i was out of control. More and more hair was flying around me and i was loving the thrill of being in charge! Finally, i said, that is enough! And it was finished! i threw some gel in it , shook it around and lo and behold.......i liked it! Wow! i just saved myself at least 40 bucks and i am actually happy at the results. After all these years, who knew?

Cheated?!?

My son always asks me for snacks in the morning. Sometimes crazy snacks before breakfast, like candy, gum and chips. This morning as he was begging me for some chips, (of course i said no) it brought back a memory somehow of when i was young and i loved Pringles potato chips. I remember going down to the store and buying a can and hiding it in my room so my sisters wouldn't eat any of it. I too, probably ate it at weird hours of the day. One time when i was young i was very upset that my mom would not pack us pringles anymore in our lunch. She said they would just get smashed in our lunch sack, which was true. So i got the idea to write a letter to the pringles company asking them to make snack size containers. They wrote me back and said, "thanks for your interest but there was not a demand for snack size...." I was really upset. I felt i was a demand enough. so i went around my neighborhood and church and asked everyone i knew to sign a petition stating that they too would be in favor of snack size Pringles. I was so excited. I just knew they were going to listen now. I even had my State Representative sign. That was icing on the cake for me! He signed his official name. Didn't everyone have to obey those in government? So i sent it in and about a week or two later, received another formal letter thanking me for my time, but no thanks. At least they sent me a coupon for my effort. Years later when they finally did come out with the snack size version, i felt cheated. i felt like wasn't that my great idea years ago? Why didn't they listen to me? Was it just because i was like 10? Shouldn't i get rewarded for telling them so long ago that this was a good idea? Now today when i buy a Pringles can or my boys ask for it, I can't help but cringe a little at how I was dismissed and now they are making money off of that great little idea i had!
Was I cheated?

Crossing Over

Just recently, i have been faced with a decision. Should i cross over or not? Here's the situation. I have a really good friend who i enjoy spending time with and sharing many personal things with. The only problem is that i haven't crossed that line where i can truly tell her things that bother me. So far we are good friends but i never pushed the line where i speak up about things that i see are a problem for her. I wonder how she will accept criticism from me. Can i do it in such a loving way that it does not seem hurtful. Will i hurt our relationship or strengthen it? It goes both ways too. So far she has never come to me with any complaints or advice, about things i may or may not be doing right. And i know i am not perfect. I want that iron sharpeneth iron relationship and not a only feel good one. I want to be challenged even if it hurts. But i just haven't decided if our relationship is ready to crossover. It is a big risk. In my opinion not every friendship is ready to make that plunge. I know it takes time and trust. I would like to think we are there or close to it but i am standing on the line wondering what to do. Maybe i need a big push!

P.S. Before you start calling me and asking me if this blog is about you. The answer is no and yes or yes and no. You see even if this isn't about you, just the fact that you think it is means that yes, indeed it is about you. You see, most, many, several, if not all my friendships are bordering on this line. Very close but not close enough. So what is the common denominator in this? The answer is me! So don't go crying to your mama, I still love all my friends, i just need to cross over the line and see if i have any friends left!!!!