STUCK!

Sometimes, I feel like this picture. Stuck! I look at my life and my circumstances and feel like life is passing me by. I tend to envy all those who get to go out and do things and in my imagination enjoy all the things that I can't right now. Having a new baby is one of the most challenging things a woman can go through. It gets especially complicated and smothering the more children you have. I'm sure not every mom feels like me and I applaud them. But this type of thinking is very easy for me being at home, changing diapers, rocking babies, making meals, cleaning up a thousand messes only to have more messes made, trying to be so many things at once only to feel like a fail at them all, trying to be that super mom and all the while feeling like the walls are caving in. I wonder what it is like to have the freedom to come and go as you please, to clean a room and have it stay cleaned, to have time to do your nails, shave properly,fix your hair, what is make-up, organize closets,read a book, get caught up on projects, and for me to be able to go and visit with friends and meet new ones. I really want to do more for our church. I want to reach out to so many people and all I have time for is the mundane jobs around the house that never get done anyhow. I could go on and on about how trapped I feel. I know that this is selfish thinking. I wonder how many others fall into this way of thinking. I bet I am not the only one.

Yesterday, Ross and I and Zeke went to a memorial service for a friend of ours, father. We were all given a little pamplet of the service along with some verses and a picture of the loved one. The Scripture that they had on the inside was one of my favorite passages. It was from Ecclesiastes chapter 3. This chapter talks all about how there is a time for everything. A season for everything. I thought about that for a while. I thought about the season of life that I am in. And reminded myself that with every season, it passes and then you are onto a new season in life. It definitely gives me hope. I know I need not to dwell on the negatives with the season of life I am in. I know I need to embrace it and love it and cherish it. Before long I bet I will miss many things about these baby years. Soon I will break free from this feeling of being trapped and be bursting onto another season in my life.